I don't know what I want

You're being asked, maybe by yourself, to know what you want, and the honest answer right now is that you don't. That isn't emptiness or a flaw; sometimes not knowing is just the quiet before something clarifies. You're allowed to sit in the question without rushing to an answer you don't have yet. Clarity tends to come from living, not from forcing, and you have more time than the panic says you do.

Not knowing what you want is far more common than people admit, and it is not a sign that you are empty or directionless. Sometimes wanting takes time to become clear, and standing in the question without an answer yet is a valid and even necessary place to be. We push ourselves to have things figured out, as if not knowing were a failure. It is not. It is often the quiet before understanding arrives.

Clarity rarely comes from forcing an answer. It comes from living, from trying things, from paying attention to what makes you feel more like yourself. You are allowed to sit in the not-knowing without rushing it. You have more time than the urgency says you do. In the meantime, you do not have to have the whole answer. You only have to be willing to ask, to stay open, and to trust that understanding will clarify itself in its own time, through the life you actually live. That is not being lost. That is being on the way.